It was my third MDMA journey session over an eight month period and I was really up for a journey through my personal universe. The session had been well planned with a written agenda of personal issues, cosmic music, and an agreement with the guide to keep the experience internalized as much as possible with eye shades, earphones, and minimum conversation.

While listening to the Neuronium album by Chromium Echoes, I was caught totally by surprise and was thrust into a state of outrage by the mindjarring sound of an atomic explosion. In that expansive and highly amplified state, I felt like I had just lived through an atomic bomb. It was real, very real, and I felt like my reactions were in the space between the blast and the last few milliseconds of my existence. All that was missing was the physical experience of the thermal wave and vaporization. The rest of the experience was extraordinarily real!

The experience thrust me into a state of total disgust, anger, and rage -- rage against those who persist with this madness in the face of the evidence. And I felt outraged with the most extraordinary human rights violation of all time -- an outrageous violation of the right to life for all living things and the feeling of helplessness as we teeter at the brink of extinction.

Intensely passionate, and trembling with emotion, I expressed my disgust, anger, and rage, which were recorded by the guide and are transcribed here word for word from the tape of that session: "That's unbelievable, unbelievable! That's so pathetic and so sick! That's what one piece of sound brings up for me. There are people all over this planet who are running around saying, Wake up! Wake Up! Wake Up! Before it's too late. Wake up! Before it's too late... Wake up! Before it's too late... Wake up! Wake up! The potentials mankind has -- and destroys!!!"

(Editor's Note: one year after this experience, S finished school and began to devote himself full-time to disarmament work.)